Who is wise?
He who always finds something to learn from others.
Who is strong?
The man who is capable of dominating himself.
Who is wealthy?
He who knows the treasure he has:
his days and hours of life,
which can change everything which goes on around him.
Its not easy to calm down.Some things happened these days make me peace off.I picked up smoking,which is terrible.I was looking for a fight,if someone ask for pouch,i will beat him down.I feel like i am going to lose my temper.
What should I say? Its natrural. That only means I am not happy with the thing happened. I need something change, new, different. And how can I get it? Nobody can change it for you in one day.even if somebody can take you a chance, are you really able to do that?
So, It’s very important to Calm Down. Be silent-to know how I can touch my goal step by step, day after day. Thats the only way to take me away from my fear, my non-confidence.
忍-Fortitude
It takes a lot of emotional courage and mental fortitude to acknowledge that the unenlightened life is characterized by much suffering.
Suffering is caused by attachment, ignorance, mis-perception, and mis-knowing.
But not caused by desire.
过程－Process
For instance, one might say I am bad at spelling . Truth of the matter is, I am bad at spelling because I didnt go through enough Process to get better.
If I learned to think that I am good or bad at something because of the process that I did or did not do than I don’t automatically say I am good or bad at something, I first look at my process and make corrections in my commitment to the process to get better at what I am doing.
Always there is a certain point in our lives, we lose control of what's happening to us, and our lives become controlled by fate.
I am living in Australia now. I speak Chinese English. I am afraid, shy, no confidence to talk to people. I have to get up 420am, catch the early train to work as a sandwich boy. I have to meet the truth; people easily ignore the existence of you. I lied to myself. I was dreaming that someday I would wear suit, go to office like a cute smart business young guy; have a lovely boyfriend then what’s the point for me? Getting a better life, make proud for my parents, stand like a success Asian boy holding a glass of wine in a party. It could be my life. But not now. This moment, what I can reach is face my situation can be easily forgotten by people, but not by myself.
The world never lie to me, only I lie to myself expected somebody can introduce a job for me, open a door for me, people couldn’t do that for me, I will leave them. This is so stupid. Face the truth; I need to know what I like. People will come and go, everybody seems to be very busy.whats the reason I am standing here?
Be with a nice boyfriend, what I can get? Somebody can give me love; somebody can make me feel existence, be attention. But its that the reason because what I can get from them, so I have to give up what I like to do. I need grow up, to build my world. It is very important. I feel I made many mistakes when I lived with somebody order than me.
In the following 2 months, my visa will expiry.I need give myself some pressure now. I need save more money to prepare my journey. I need study more to be ready to get a job.I have dreams,and i have to work hard to achieve it no matter what happens.
Now i am working 3 days.2 days during the week,i am free.I need go for some interviews.During the week nights.I need study english and accounting,reduce the frequency to hang outside.Doing exercise for marathons.It could be very simple and happy.Try my best to do what i can do now.It is very important.I am sure i can live with my dreams.
Don’t try to be brave
when it is enough to be intelligent.
Straightly I am thinking about I am out.Thinking about Travelling by myslef.Are those decisions wise?Or right time for me ?
What i have to be concerned about gonna be my dream,and how I am going to go about getting it.I am going to be a successful happy chef who will travel around the world.The reason are:
I am passion about making delicious food for the people I love.
I cannt be socialized.coz i am so special :) The reason is that i dont like to deal with people who have poor desire/personality.
Cooking need lots of creativities.It includes many elements -culture,histroy,art,philosophy.Most people I will deal with are simple.
I can start business,I can travel.It can be my window to see the world and show my world.
My heart is not open ,so where i go?
You r my lesson ,I have to learn.I have to grow up.I have to forget him.Pain is a warning that something is wrong.He is not suitable for me.God,help me out.I have somebody i can love now.I am so sorry.I think i have some mental problem,God,i hate this,hate myslef.
I should not say that.
Stop!I am survived.I showed all things I can .I tried everything I can.Not like somebody never really tried.There is nothing else to lose.There is nothing else for me to stay in this kind of stuation.Fuck!I hate myslef in this kind of stuation so much.
I dont want cry whenever i am too much drink.Its not good.Somebody can have so much love in their life.Why I cannt.I could have different kinds of love.
I have a person I can care about.So,Way.There always a way for me.I am smart guy.I have to stand up by myslef.
Your heart is not open
So I must go
The spell has been broken
I loved you so
Freedom comes when you learn to let go
Creation comes when you learn to say no
You were my lesson
I had to learn
I was your fortress
You had to burn
Pain is a warning that something's wrong
I pray to God that it won't be long
Do you wanna go higher?
There's nothing left to try
There's no place left to hide
There's no greater power than the power of good-bye
Your heart is not open
So I must go
The spell has been broken
I loved you so
You were my lesson
I had to learn
I was your fortress
There's nothing left to lose
There's no more heart to bruise
There's no greater power than the power of good-bye
Learn to say good-bye
I have to say good-bye
Between Ignorance and Enlightenment
What is long life for evrything u looking for ?
Ignorance-Enlightenment it can come so closely together.
Never make a reason for the things happened.All the thing happened is Truth.
When it becomes a Truth,Nothing is wrong.
To meet a right person,you only should be right condition.Everyone have different stories and conditions in different stage.Lets have a big love for a person,and you have more achievements.
"It should be a cooking show, not a show on meditation."
"Music sounds like some sort of soundtrack to a brainwashing cult."
"she really really plays up the asia-exotica-mystery thing and makes the cooking inaccessible to sometimes just down right silly-where she made comfort food: fried egg mixed with rice, soy sauce and chili -- we make it all the time at home and without the perfectly julienned chili peppers thank you!"
Anyway,wheather its successed ,It is just TV product.Its for mass media.
Food at home is about simple,easy,happyness,just like roasted potato in christmas or morning sandwich by Mum.
Food for commercial,It varies.
As a talented chef.Its better explain the profound things in a simple way.
Its better to do just one thing best.Culture,food,philosophy.
Love can pass or not?
When you concentrate something /somebody,it can last long or not ?
Sadness /happyness all can open another door for you,is that right?
Life have lots of creative,clam doesnot mean death.
I have a long journey .
Overcome the inner sickness of Attachement,Hatred,Jealousy,Desire,Greed and Ignorance.
Lotus-Buddhist-Chef-Travel
Whenever we need to make an important decision,
It is best to trust your passion,
Because reasons usually try to remove us from our dream,
Saying that the time is not yet right .
Reason is afraid of defeat,
But intuition enjoys life and its challenges.
Note:Am i going to be an accountant,which i will hate it as my career?Am i going to move out ?Its not a simple question.Leave me some time to think about me and my passion.
I wasted almost 7 years to do nothing.Time to end up shit life.
I want to be a famous creative chef in the world.I am well educated.I can do better than others.
My Mum asked me go to a clinic institution after i told her i had sex with boy a few years ago.coz she was worried about my mental health.Yesterday i telephoned my mum,she just finished her operation-excision of whole gallbladder.She possibly heard something from my sister i guess that i stayed a man's place at least twice a week.But my mum didnt ask me if its true or not.Just told me that there is something she wanted to say but dont know how to say,she dont want to be embarrassed.Anyway what she said,i understand.I dont want to hurt her either.But i am going to lie.If she feel difficulty to talk about gay ,thats ok.I wont thrust something to her mind.
Everyone have dreams,that are not necessarily the dreams that our parents or society had for us.so,I must get rid of the idea of fulfilling what people expect us to do,and start to do what i ecpect from my lives.
Dare to be different.
I am unique,and i have to accept me as I am,instead of trying to repeat other people's destinies or patterns.
I have capacity to express my feelings.
From now on i wont fear to share my heart.
I am a free person.
