How to get rid of this

My heart is not open ,so where i go?

You r my lesson ,I have to learn.I have to grow up.I have to forget him.Pain is a warning that something is wrong.He is not suitable for me.God,help me out.I have somebody i can love now.I am so sorry.I think i have some mental problem,God,i hate this,hate myslef.

I should not say that.

Stop!I am survived.I showed all things I can .I tried everything I can.Not like somebody never really tried.There is nothing else to lose.There is nothing else for me to stay in this kind of stuation.Fuck!I hate myslef in this kind of stuation so much.

I dont want cry whenever i am too much drink.Its not good.Somebody can have so much love in their life.Why I cannt.I could have different kinds of love.

I have a person I can care about.So,Way.There always a way for me.I am smart guy.I have to stand up by myslef.

The Power Of GoodBye

Your heart is not open
So I must go
The spell has been broken
I loved you so

Freedom comes when you learn to let go
Creation comes when you learn to say no

You were my lesson
I had to learn
I was your fortress
You had to burn

Pain is a warning that something's wrong
I pray to God that it won't be long
Do you wanna go higher?

There's nothing left to try
There's no place left to hide
There's no greater power than the power of good-bye

Your heart is not open
So I must go
The spell has been broken
I loved you so
You were my lesson
I had to learn
I was your fortress

There's nothing left to lose
There's no more heart to bruise
There's no greater power than the power of good-bye

Learn to say good-bye
I have to say good-bye

Long Life

Between Ignorance and Enlightenment

What is long life for evrything u looking for ?

Ignorance-Enlightenment it can come so closely together.

Never make a reason for the things happened.All the thing happened is Truth.

When it becomes a Truth,Nothing is wrong.

To meet a right person,you only should be right condition.Everyone have different stories and conditions in different stage.Lets have a big love for a person,and you have more achievements.

Kylie Wong

"It should be  a cooking show, not a show on meditation."

"Music sounds like some sort of soundtrack to a brainwashing cult."

"she really really plays up the asia-exotica-mystery thing and makes the cooking inaccessible to sometimes just down right silly-where she made comfort food: fried egg mixed with rice, soy sauce and chili -- we make it all the time at home and without the perfectly julienned chili peppers thank you!"

Anyway,wheather its successed ,It is just TV product.Its for mass media.

Food at home is about simple,easy,happyness,just like roasted potato in christmas or morning sandwich by Mum.

Food for commercial,It varies.

As a talented chef.Its better explain the profound things in a simple way.

Its better to do just one thing best.Culture,food,philosophy.

Love and Compassion

 

Love can pass or not?

When you concentrate something /somebody,it can last long or not ?

Sadness /happyness  all can open another door for you,is that right?

Life have lots of creative,clam doesnot mean death.

I have a long journey .

Overcome the inner sickness of Attachement,Hatred,Jealousy,Desire,Greed and Ignorance.

Lotus-Buddhist-Chef-Travel

To Purify myself

Whenever we need to make an important decision,

It is best to trust your passion,

Because reasons usually try to remove us from our dream,

Saying that the time is not yet right .

Reason is afraid of defeat,

But intuition enjoys life and its challenges.

Note:Am i going to be an accountant,which i will hate it as my career?Am i going to move out ?Its not a simple  question.Leave me some time to think about me and my passion.

I wasted almost 7 years to do nothing.Time to end up shit life.

I want to be a  famous creative chef  in the world.I am well educated.I can do better than others.

Mentally disturbed

My Mum asked me go to a clinic institution after i told her i had sex with boy a few years ago.coz she was worried about my mental health.Yesterday i telephoned my mum,she just finished her operation-excision of whole gallbladder.She possibly heard something from my sister i guess that i stayed a man's place at least twice a week.But my mum didnt ask me if its true or not.Just told me that there is something she wanted to say but dont know how to say,she dont want to be embarrassed.Anyway what she said,i understand.I dont want to hurt her either.But i am going to lie.If she feel difficulty to talk about gay ,thats ok.I wont thrust something to her mind.

Everyone have dreams,that are not necessarily the dreams that our parents or society had for us.so,I must get rid of the idea of fulfilling what people expect us to do,and start to do what i ecpect from my lives.

Dare to be different.

I am unique,and i have to accept me as I am,instead of trying to repeat other people's destinies or patterns.

I have capacity to express my feelings.

From now on i wont fear to share my heart.

I am a free person.